hmmmm....

A part of me wants to go back to the Rubies. I miss my friends and our life there. This move has not been easy for me. The motel really isn't that bad. We have had a few nights being woke up to check someone in, but that is it. It has been busy lately except for the last couple days. I don't mind the busyness cause it means we are making money to make ends meet and hopefully a little extra to do a few minor improvements. I just don't really like the fact that we are handcuffed to this place. We don't get any nights off and if we want to go out of town for a night to do something we have to find a motel babysitter and depending on who it is we have to pay them for it and to be honest this place does not make much money. So, our hopes of being closer to our family and thinking that maybe we can get away and do stuff with them more have diminished. As for Rex, who is that? I don't see him very much as he works on the motel owner's ranch and that has been really hard to adjust to. We go from having 3 meals together as a family a day and we are lucky if we get to have 1 together a day. I am a single parent most of the time and I really don't like that. We must have been really spoiled at our previous job. Monte is really acting out and screaming at me all the time and I am beginning to think that this is what it is going to be like in a few months when his little sister gets here and I am wondering what the crap are we doing? Everett is being babysat by the TV most of the time and I hate that, but what else do I do with him while I am busy with motel stuff or feel like I have nowhere to go? I am tired and I am done pretending that this is all a bowl of cherries. So, if you were wondering...that is how we are doing.